Unbalanced

That is what has been happening the past three months. Over the past couple of weeks God has shown me I am just too unbalanced. It is one thing to be dedicated to your job; to want to be successful and (especially with working at a church) want to go above and beyond to help make the ministry successful. But to place it above all else, to focus on nothing else is not good. Not healthy. And not how God wants it. And I am so guilty of this. I didn't mean to get to this point. I couldn't even tell you how I got to this point. It just kinda happened. Don't get me wrong I love my job and the people I work with. I praise God each day that He has blessed me to work at Brookwood. It's just my life has been unbalanced and beginning tomorrow I am backing off a little. Meaning no more working late hours. As some of the folks say at church, you will never have everything done - there will always be something to do. I think the perfectionist in me was trying to prove to myself that I can get it all done. I have felt like I am floundering in the unknown territory of ministry. Growing up the way I did in the church that I grew up in, there was no such thing as ministry. No one ever "did" ministry. So this whole thing of ministry is brand new to me - unknown to me and lately I have felt like I am struggling in it. Struggling with finding my place. I feel guilty that I haven't balanced life and ministry/job. I've been wondering why God placed me where I am since I am new to everything I am experiencing at Brookwood. I am not as experienced as others. After an amazing heart to heart for two hours with my good friend Jill this weekend(who knows very well what goes on when you work in the ministry); I know that God has strategically placed me at Brookwood for this time. That He has plans to use me and that it's ok to not be perfect in everything I do - I am new to this and learning. God is so amazing in placing me at Brookwood when He did. To make me get out of my comfort zone, to stretch me alittle - to make me grow. And to connect me with people that will surround me with prayer, love and guidance as I go through this new season in my life.

Blessings and Hugs~
Karen

"Remember ministry is not about position, it's about people. Let name after name be written on your heart. He who turns water in to wine, turns wimps into warriors. You have a ministry. Go fulfill it!" - Beth Moore